Dancing With God

Lately I've been focusing more on Circle 1 time (time spent alone in community with God.) I've really felt the benefit of this in my daily life. I usually just listen to this one song that has a particular meaning to me, and just say that as a prayer to God. I'll also scroll randomly through my music on my computer, and stop when I feel like I should. Sometimes the song that I land on has meaning at the time, or turns out to be a really spiritual moment.

When I was little, I used to "dance with God." I didn't really call it that, but that's basically what it was. I would just start dancing to music, and completely let go. I remember finding this extremely freeing, and I have great memories of this.

Soon, though this started to be "embarrassing." People would find me, and then want to watch me. This was intimidating, and I soon stopped dancing with God.

Recently, in doing more Circle 1, I've felt the urge to dance again. I mean, I dance still, and sometimes even in front of people. It's just the dancing from my heart that I don't like people seeing.

Last night, I finally got up the guts to. I was alone in my room, and it was late at night. I was about to start listening to the usual song. (Everything, by Lifehouse.)I decided I'd get up and light candles, and sit on the floor. I just felt like I should.

I love candles, and frequently have them burning, so this wasn't very strange feeling to me at all. So, I got on the floor, and started my Circle 1 time. I listened to a few other songs-ones that I felt I should-and then scrolled through to Everything.

When the song came on, at first I just did what I had been doing. But the urge to dance was stronger. Finally, I just went for it. I haven't danced like that in years. It felt great to just let go of myself. Even though nobody could see me, it's a step to being back to where I was.